Woes Of A Frustrated Graduate

Its of general knowledge that evil has different ways of dissipating their pains when life tends 2 be unfair. Some lights their marijuana's, some,pray, some head 2 d brothel while majority hits d bottle. But as for me, I love 2 write it out. So dont mind any form of grammatical blunder or aberration in dix text cos a frustrated and half-sane graduate is currently on the keyboard. Just about a year ago wen I finished my nysc (just clocked 24 then), d hopes were extremely high. 

Tho its no news that jobs aint readily available bt I was unperturbed cos I believe am exceptionally different (I still am) and my chances are high due my being intelligent, smart, young, innovative only 2 mention few and above all armed wt a good 2-1.D job hunt started d day after my passing out(13th feb 2014) and till dz moment I haven't gotten a job and the is no sign of one forth-coming. I can read your mind @ dz junction! U are actually thinking what wrong wt dz one? He has just spent a year for job-hunting and he is complaining already? I'm sure I guessed right!

I think I should be more explanatory, between the feb last year and todayday,  i have written 21 aptitude tests (all of d big fours, almost half of d banks and can't just start listing),I passed 15 of dem wc means av attended 15 interviews. Some of the recruitment are so rigorous such that its up 2 5 stages but minimum is 3.out of d 15 interviews, I made 9 2 d last stage only 2 get a regret mail afterwards. 

The interviews has made me a regular figure @ d motor parks as I travel from calabar 2 lag @ least once a week all 4 job-hunting.D qstn is how many people has gotten d privilege of such stages of interview and is still w/o a job?i I'm always conscious of telling people d no of tests av passed,interviews av attended and still without a job because most people will resort 2 d conclusion dat I av a spiritual problem (wc I dont believe I have). 

Tho no one z righteous 100percent bt I bliv am trying my best as a xtian, I av a well-preserved moral,I work hard and pray hard (real fasting and prayer) but hasn't really Gotten any conviction God listens. Am really confused ,frustrated and weighed down presently. I knw some pple will be tinkin y can't sum1 dat z dz smart use his brain 4 himself? That is my ultimate target if u'd like 2 hear but thier isn't any capital 2 drive that( d main reason am job-hunting). 

Sometimes I wonder y God choose 2 be unfair 2 doz trying 2 be loyal 2 him yl doz that are recalcitrant often get tinz done easily. The sight of seeing our ageing mum fasting 4 days in a week steadily because of her 5 children who are all graduates (wc she single-highhandedly made-happen wt her primary school teacher salary and pension) but w/o a good job makes me think God is wicked or non-existent and make me starts envying the atheist. The well-planned idea of landing that good job and getting her a cool car 2 compensate 4 her un quantifiable strive has suddenly become a mirage. 

It has even gotten 2 d stage that their are certain call I don't pick again cos I know d first qstn that will come is "where are you working".that seems 2 be d qstn I most dread now.I can't just go on and on about what have been through. So am kinda wondering is it how it gonna continue for someone  that doesn't know any one but claims to know God? Is there any chance 4 someone that doesn't have connections in this country? Is it reasonable 2 be doing one tin d same way and be expecting a different result?

...Anyways, am ever optimistic cos I believe "d future is not what happens but what we make happen".What exactly we make happen makes the difference. He.He who laughs last thinks slowest..#Still believing in God, he makes thing perfect @ his own time

# To all others in my shoes or even worse, God will give the right contact in earnest.."Let's kip working and believing".

Yours Sincerely,
A presently confused and frustrated Graduate

#Sorry 4 d inarticulate and unexpressive write-up, no thanks 2 d mood#